Tuesday, December 21, 2010

2 years already?!

**Sidenote...this was supposed to be completed last week, on the 10th, when my boy turned two.  But, life caught up with me.  I'm determined to make it happen though!

Two?  Already?  No way!  You can't be two yet.  But the little shirt I put on you this morning says you are, and you look so handsome in it.  You've grown up on me so much these last few months little boy.  Maybe it's knowing that our time together with just you is shorter with each passing day now.  Maybe it's looking through the tiny things you used and wore, realizing just how much bigger you've gotten since you sat in that bouncer, and I washed you for the first time in that little bathtub, and dried you with that towel for the first time. 

I can't count the number of times I've been told to "cherish every second, they go too fast, he'll be big before you know it".  The crazy thing?  I HAVE.  Almost every day, at some point, I think about the fact that you might never make that funny face again, or maybe next time you say movie it won't just sound like "eee-ee".  I've tried to cherish everything, maybe not encouraging you to get big as much as I should, because sometimes I don't really want you to get big yet.  Even with this knowledge, you grow too fast.  It seems like just yesterday that I was examining your tiny hands and feet, studying your sweet tiny face, soaking in every inch of that tiny baby that was finally here.  Now I watch you as you run and jump, slowly learn to talk, learn all your animal noises and all the other funny things you do, and I don't really want to blink because I know that then all these things you're doing now will be just as distant as all your newborn moments are to me now.  But as much as I want to keep you little, I want you to grow more.  I want to teach you and guide you, and watch you grow into the boy and then the man that God wants you to be.  But for now, I'll just let you be little, and be happy to do so.

I love the time we've had together my little man.  I love that I've gotten to soak in so much of your babyhood while it's just us.  It won't be this way for long, but I love it.  And I love you, my big two year old.